Another extract from the book…She smiled…coming out soon!
“Chloe! Chloe”, called her father as he was heading to the office. It was the holidays and all Father’s children were made to work in the office. A means of introducing them to the business. Learning the trade was not one of the key interests of a six-year-old. Most occasions, she spent most of the day playing on the streets with the other children.
One of the children Chloe played with was John, a nephew of one of father’s workers. John was a fair skinned, dull, pale faced; like watered down milky coffee, thin young boy. As Chloe played with this young boy, it led Chloe to question “what the difference are between a boy and a girl”. Questions which generated childhood curiosity in Chloe mind.
In exploring her curiosity, playing with other kids on the street raised more ideas into Chloe mind on how to find out about these differences. She started getting interested in exploring and understanding the differences. Sometimes, she secretly followed and watched the boys urinating on the street.
“Why do they have to stand, and I have to bend to urinate?” she thought. To avoid been labelled for her childhood curiosity and sensing the taboo of this subject; she could not and did not discuss this with her mother and siblings especially her two older brothers. She took the law into her hands to find out herself.
Chloe secretly started reaching out to some of the pornography magazines which she found among the stuff belonging to her Father’s workers called “Ikebe super”. Ikebe super was a cartoon magazine that expressed sexual activities between the opposite sexes.
At first it felt awkward, but Chloe soon got use to the feeling and would go to a hiding place to digest the images portrayed within the pages of the book. Unknown to her John was also privately involved in viewing the magazine. Chloe was in her hiding behind the boxes of delivery for Father’s factory, when John walked over.
They accidentally realised they were both involved in digesting the content magazine. They agreed a meeting point where they viewed the cartoons together. Deep down, Chloe knew it was wrong because she did it secretly without the members of her family noticing, however she felt it satisfied her curiosity.
There was the constant need to explore what her senses had craved for from the cartoons. One afternoon out of sheer childhood idleness, Chloe and John and some other children decided to play in the loft of her father business complex. The kids were not normally allowed in the loft, it was a darkness part of the office block used as storage for new deliveries.
Luckily for the children, there was no scheduled delivery for the company that day. The loft had an awful odour from the several chemicals used in Father’s business. Usually there is a red bulb providing light to reduce the intensity of darkness in the room. Unfortunately, that afternoon there was no electricity power.
As before, the children approached the room, Chloe heard Mother reminding one of the staff, to make sure the children were not allowed in the loft. An instruction that was not followed up with actions by any of the staff. John, being the oldest led the children unsuspiciously into the room, whilst Chloe raised the tiny curtains in the dark room for some ray of light.
Initially, the darkness and smell in the room felt crippling, unpleasant, unenjoyable and physically draining. After a while, they forgot about the smell, darkness or the sense of discomfort that surrounded them. They knew they were not meant to be there, but they stayed in the loft anyway. Not knowing John had his motives for selecting the play area that afternoon, he suggested they all play the game of “mummies and daddies” …
Apart from struggling with her physical identity from my last blog, Chloe started struggling with her sexual identity.
Have you or anyone around you struggled in the same landscape as Chloe in today’s short story?
Most times, sexuality is one of the most difficult topics discussed within the Christian community. As a mother, I constantly measure the boundaries of the context and content of sexual topics I discuss with my girls.
The truth remains; the earlier we start discussing the topic, the better they become equipped to face the corrupt world they will eventually grow into.
As Christians, we should not wait for the schools or the government to control our children’s sexual education. It’s our God’s given right to do so in a godly way. Shaping their curious hearts in the path of holiness and purity
Remember if we don’t, some else will…possibly in a godless manner.
Take responsibility by God’s grace, kindly let me know what you think?
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